Real Happiness

My real happiness is my life with my dog.Gracie has been my best friend,confidant,protector and mood enhancer for the last 5+years.There was a life of "before"Gracie that was filled with unhappiness,sadness and such deep and dark depression that my world was literally,BLACK.With Gracie being apart of my life I have found the person I am and have kept my demons in check.For those of us who suffer from Depression,a dog can be the bridge back to a life of color and joy.It is a process,one I am learning every day.Nothing worth having comes easy.You must work for it.

Monday, May 14, 2007

The Pity Look

What the pity look is for a homeless person is ,being filthy,unshaven,torn and loose clothing.I will admit that on some days I would look worse than others.You've seen the homeless help signs,I did it,and it was very profitable at times.At first I'll admit I was reluctant to stand on the corner of a major street,holding a sign that begged for money and or food.But,it only took one time,when I got 160.00 for one car.Not all days were like that,but more than most.At first I thought that it was because I was a female,not so.Alot of the guys "flying"signs would also make out pretty well on most days.The "pity" look did not work very well for me,it seemed the dirtier I was the less cash I recieved.On those days that I "hit"big,I'd take off ,leave the scene.I t was considered bad karma to stay at a place you recieved a generous hit,and try for more money.Things generally went downhill for me if I tried to be greedy.It only took one time to show me that you give thanks for the great amount of money and take a long break.I always prayed before I went out,and I always gave thanks for my windfall.I remeber one day having one of my bad days.I had been standing at a freeway exit for over an hour and still had not gotten a dollar,traffic was building up for the 5pm rush hour,about 20 cars back I saw a hand wave to me,when I got up to the car,an asian man opened his wallet and gave me everything.You NEVER count your money out in traffic or on the street,you find a place to have privacy.I had seen a few one;s,so I was figuring 15 or20 dollars.It was 258.00.I was able to rest for 2days and buy food and a pair of good tennis shoes.

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