2008

This year started off bad.My favorite uncle died.That should have given me a clue as to how this year was going to go.It seems like every three months someone died.The last death was my best friend.I had spent the weekend with her,and although she was not in the greatest health,she was no where near close to dying,or so I thought.The coroner still can't tell us what happened or if they do know they are not telling us until they are sure of what killed her.I still see her laying there,I knew she was'nt asleep,and then when I touched her I knew.I thought I was going to have a panic attack or a heart attack it was and still is devestating.We had talked about dying but it was my death we talked about,not hers,even though she was older than me by 11 years.I still find myself waiting for her to call me.I talked to her everyday and saw her at least 3 times a week sometimes spending a few days at her house just to have a change of pace.I'd bring my dog over to play with her dogs and we would talk or run errands.I just always expected her to be here.And now that she's not,I miss her so badly that I don't think the missing of her will ever go away.