Real Happiness

My real happiness is my life with my dog.Gracie has been my best friend,confidant,protector and mood enhancer for the last 5+years.There was a life of "before"Gracie that was filled with unhappiness,sadness and such deep and dark depression that my world was literally,BLACK.With Gracie being apart of my life I have found the person I am and have kept my demons in check.For those of us who suffer from Depression,a dog can be the bridge back to a life of color and joy.It is a process,one I am learning every day.Nothing worth having comes easy.You must work for it.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

The Minutes before Dawn

I often wonder when it was that I finally became comfortable in my own skin.It was a huge step for me.I was born with a paralyzed right eye.It is always mistaken for a lazy eye.But,that is not what is wrong with my eye.I have no control over how or where it moves,so you may think I am looking at you,when I am not.I can only imagine what it looks like to others.I know what I've been called because of it,"one eyed,popeye,cyclops",now that was a devestating one.I was called names and treated like an alien in jr. high and high school.I often wonder if my mother knew or even cared about the kids calling me names,making me feel like I did not matter.She had to of known,but she did nothing.She never said,hey,it's okay.Your eye does'nt matter.You matter.I never got those words of encouragment,words I so badly needed.As crazy as it sounds I think she was embarrassed of me.When I had'nt seen her in almost 20 years,I went to Texas to see her,after 3 days on the train,I arrived.There were no hugs,no murmured words of caring or of missing me,no.The first thing she said was,"your eye has gotten worse"then she turned her back and walked off.I should have stayed on the train.I stayed for 2 weeks,she did not take me anywhere.Not out to dinner,not sightseeing...nothing.What do you do when your own mother refuses to love you or accept you?You go on.It took years to obtain my self esteem,to be able to look in the mirror and say,"Iam beautiful",smart,funny,and worth living.I became strong,independent,sure of myself.I refused to let people hurt me,or bring me down.I forgave my mother.She should be pitied,not hated.She does not matter in my life.Once I forgave her,a huge weight lifted off of me.I was free,no longer a prisoner to the pain,neglect and abuse she once controlled me with.I see her for who she really is,and I think that scares her.I'm almost 50 now.And I have learned to have compassion,respect,and forgiveness.I keep my mindfree ofhatred,anger and negativity.I am happy with my life,I am still growing,and that is joy in itself.I have Gracie,my dog,a roof over my head,food,water,what else do I need?Most important of all I have my faith and the sense that I'm doing the right thing today.

Monday, September 7, 2009

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It's time to get Gracie in the bedroom and go to sleep.I take her for her walks at 5am,so need to get to bed soon.

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It's time to get Gracie in the bedroom and go to sleep.I take her for her walks at 5am,so need to get to bed soon.

Walks with Gracie

One of the best parts of my day is at 5am when I take Gracie out for her morning walk.I love the darkness just before the sun comes up,it's quiet,so peaceful.It's almost as if you are the only one on earth,just for that 45 minutes.I was never a morning person,but as I've gotten older,mornings have become more attractive to me.I guess because it's the only time of day that it is really quiet and still.I can think,plan my day,wake up slowly unrushed.I do not like being rushed.I enjoy the time spent just walking in the cool dawn air with my girl Gracie.

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Walks with Gracie

One of the best parts of my day is at 5am when I take Gracie out for her morning walk.I love the darkness just before the sun comes up,it's quiet,so peaceful.It's almost as if you are the only one on earth,just for that 45 minutes.I was never a morning person,but as I've gotten older,mornings have become more attractive to me.I guess because it's the only time of day that it is really quiet and still.I can think,plan my day,wake up slowly unrushed.I do not like being rushed.I enjoy the time spent just walking in the cool dawn air with my girl Gracie.

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Gracie and I are back to our daily walks.5am is the best time to go.There is no traffic,no people,no noise.I can actually think and Gracie is free to sniff anywhere she wants to.It is a great way to start the day.

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Gracie and I are back to our daily walks.5am is the best time to go.There is no traffic,no people,no noise.I can actually think and Gracie is free to sniff anywhere she wants to.It is a great way to start the day.

Sunday, September 6, 2009

PetStreet - Latest pet and animal news - 10 commandments for pet owners.

These are the 10 commandments for true pet lovers.They are’nt hard to keep or difficult to understand.They are actually pretty simple.I love my Gracie more than is probably normal,but,she has given me way more than I could ever give her.She keeps me sane,makes me laugh and she is always there for me.And all she asks for is to be fed,and loved.What is so hard about doing that?

 

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Friday, September 4, 2009

Time for Gracie

I'm feeling better,still tired but at least the swelling has gone down.Now it's time to concentrate on racie.She has been such a good girl.Guarding me,hovering over me,and just staying close.I have started her walks again.We go twice a day.About 6 am and 8 pm.I've started off just walking aroundthe neighboorhood.It's about 20 to 25 minutes.So,she does her number,and gets to sniff all along the way.She deserves some time just for her.I'm hoping I'll be able to get to the dog park on Saturday.She needs to play with some dogs and be able to run.

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Time for Gracie

I'm feeling better,still tired but at least the swelling has gone down.Now it's time to concentrate on racie.She has been such a good girl.Guarding me,hovering over me,and just staying close.I have started her walks again.We go twice a day.About 6 am and 8 pm.I've started off just walking aroundthe neighboorhood.It's about 20 to 25 minutes.So,she does her number,and gets to sniff all along the way.She deserves some time just for her.I'm hoping I'll be able to get to the dog park on Saturday.She needs to play with some dogs and be able to run.

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I'm better today.Watching SUPERNATURAL on DVR.I record 4 to 6 episodes then make a night of it with favorite programs.I'm able to catch up and not worry if I'm not home to catch the show when it airs.I'm slowly getting back to walking Gracie every morning and night.I feel so bad,jus because I'm sick does'nt mean she should suffer.She has been so good during this time.I'm going to try and get to the dog park on Saturday.She has so much fun when we go.It makes me feel good to watch her with the other dogs.

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Sleep

I'm better today.But still plan on sleeping most of the day and night.I just cannot seem to get my energy back.And if I don't get off my butt,I won't have the money to pay some of my bills.I have the money,I just want to keep that money in my savings.That what savings are for,to save.Gracie has a vet appointment on the 14th.She really needs a complete work up before winter sets in.I bought her a huge tug and pull toy,she loves it.She does'nt really play with too many toys,s for her to play with this one,it is fantastic.Especially since we can play with it together.She actually carries it around the house with her,now thats remarkable in itself.

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Feeling better,still tired but better.I have to go back to work next week.I've lost 2 much money sleeping.

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Losing

Feeling better,still tired but better.I have to go back to work next week.I've lost 2 much money sleeping.I just hate being around my roommate,he is such a bully.No one ever does anything right,he is the one who is always right.I just get tired of him threatening people,behind their backs of course.He's one of those people who like to talk big,but in the end all they are is a coward.He likes to bully those people who cannot fight back.He never picks on anyone who can really hurt him,he kisses thier butt!It's soo hilarious!

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

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I'm out of commision.At least I'll be able to catch up on my reading and my sleep!That cannot be all bad.

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I'm out of commision.At least I'll be able to catch up on my reading and my sleep!That cannot be all bad.

Good things for Good People

Gracie has been hovering over me for the last week.She knows that I've been sick.My doctor has ordered me on bedrest for the rest of the week.Or at least until my blood work comes back.Creator has been taking care of me thru all this.I've gotten close to 200.00 in cks from the surveys I do on the internet.So,even though I'm not able to go out and work like I usually do,Creator has made sure I have the money to pay my bills and get Gracie to her Vet appointment the 14th.I believe that if you put out positive energy,your going to get positive energy back.And I have never been wrong.I do not worry about how I'm going to pay this or that,because Creator has always provided for me.And this week has been another blessing

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Good things for Good People

Gracie has been hovering over me for the last week.She knows that I've been sick.My doctor has ordered me on bedrest for the rest of the week.Or at least until my blood work comes back.Creator has been taking care of me thru all this.I've gotten close to 200.00 in cks from the surveys I do on the internet.So,even though I'm not able to go out and work like I usually do,Creator has made sure I have the money to pay my bills and get Gracie to her Vet appointment the 14th.I believe that if you put out positive energy,your going to get positive energy back.And I have never been wrong.I do not worry about how I'm going to pay this or that,because Creator has always provided for me.And this week has been another blessing

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It's been a good week.Even though I have been ordered to stay in bed,I have gotten close to 200.00 in cks thru my survey work.It's nice to have money and not feel the need to go spend it.Gracie is getting her Vet visit this month.I take her every year for a complete work up.That is one of the things that I must do.If you have a pet you need to not only feed and water the pet,you need to ensure that the pet stays healthy.

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It's been a good week.Even though I have been ordered to stay in bed,I have gotten close to 200.00 in cks thru my survey work.It's nice to have money and not feel the need to go spend it.Gracie is getting her Vet visit this month.I take her every year for a complete work up.That is one of the things that I must do.If you have a pet you need to not only feed and water the pet,you need to ensure that the pet stays healthy.

Thursday, August 27, 2009

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- Best Friends Network (http://network.bestfriends.org)

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Edit Your Profile - Best Friends Network

Edit Your Profile - Best Friends Network This has got to be one of the best rescue orgs in the country.No dog is ever turned away because of health or behavior problems.Unlike the SPCA,they do not put down dogs because the have trouble socializing or because they cannot find a home or because of health problems.These people CARE about the dogs and cats that are in their care.I have seen John work miracles with dogs that others gave up on.If for some reason they cannot find a suitable home for these special dogs and cats,then they live at the site for the rest of their lives,cared for,loves and protected.But,it is unusual for a home NOT to be found for these special animals.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Monday, August 24, 2009

Should Dog Flu strike, would you recognize it? | PetMD

Should Dog Flu strike, would you recognize it? | PetMD

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I think I would be able to spot the flu in Gracie,but this article sure gave me some valuable tips.As a dog lover,I do my best to catch problems early,before they become out of control or fatal.

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Why dog food is not for cats...and vice versa | PetMD

Why dog food is not for cats...and vice versa | PetMD

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Why would any good pet person feed their dog cat food??? That's just gross and totally inane.Anyone who would do this should not have any dogs or cats.I would never give my girl Gracie something as nasty as cat food.No offence to cats.Anyone who has any sense would know without being told that mixxing pet food is a HUGE no-no!

Monday, August 10, 2009

Gracie's day

When someone says they have a dogs life it must mean that they sleep half the day and the other half is spent trying to drive their human nuts.Gracie does NOT like my laptop.She is up and awake the second I open the top.Oh,well,she's my girl,I'm hoping that she'll get use to me being on the computer soon.

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Thursday, August 6, 2009

Dog Park Day

It's been awhile since I was able to get my mom to take me over to the dog park.Never let anyone tell you that pouting does'nt work!It sure worked great for me.Although we spent 3 hours at the park,there sure were'nt very many big dogs there today.I only had the small dogs to chase.And that was a work out in it self.They just would not cooperate.I tried everything I could think of to get them to run and play,all they wanted to do was hide behind their moms.At least my mom took me to the other side of the dog run,I found a couple of other dogs to play with,but I was starting to get bored with the wholw situation.Parents,Please,do not bring your two legged children to the dog park.It is not a place to let your 2 or 3 year old have free rein.I could not go into the big pen because someone brought their 2 toddlers,and since I'm not use to children,I was not able to go into my regular play area.This was extremely frustrating.I come to the dog park to play,IT'S A DOG PARK,and we do not have a wide selection of thse in this town.So,parents please,please take your two legged babies to the childrens park,a dog park is for the dogs!

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Thursday, July 23, 2009

I'm sooo close,I can almost feel the keyboard,I'm going to look at laptops this weekend!!

Monday, July 13, 2009

It's sooo hot,Gracie won't even go outside.I'm home till Thursday.Updates then.

Friday, July 10, 2009

Gracie is looking for the baby kitten she found early this morning,I gave it back to it's real mother.

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Not feeling too great the last few days,I'm hoping it's just the heat.

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Gracie is slowly adjusting to the heat,if you call adjusting sleeping all day under the a/c!!!
Disability claim has been denied,my condition is not serious enough,guess I'll have to be on life support like my late husband,oh yea,they still denied him due to the same reason as mine!

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Ok,now I am really up the creek.Not only has my daughter stolen the computer fromt the house,she sold it to buy drugs!Things just get better and better.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Checking out for the day,back on Thursday.I have a ton of things to do for myself and Gracie the next 2 days!
It is now official,Gracie is the most accident prone dog I have ever had!She has tunnel vision when it comes to her "prey"(CATS).So,she has no idea when she gets hurt until after the chase!

Monday, June 29, 2009

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Remember to check out my review on dog fur eliminator @all4dogs@blog.over-blog.com.

Dogs and Heat

I don't know what the weather is like in other cities,but here in the Central Valley it has been getting up to 108 the past few days.And unfortunately there is no relief in site until maybe,the end of this week.If you have a pet,like I do,DO NOT LEAVE THEM OUTSIDE in this heat.If you have trees in the yard,the shade WILL NOT be enough to protect your pet from the sheer burning that they will incure in heat of this magnitude.Put yourself in thier place,could you handle the heat outside?I doubt it.Make sure your pet has plenty of water around,and if it's not possible to bring the pet inside,at least watch and make sure your pet does not become ill or have a siezure.Keep the hose handy,in case you need to cool them off.
I don't know if it's possible,but 108 degrees is way too hot for me and my dog,Gracie to be outside.Remember,keep your pets inside if it gets over 100!

Saturday, June 27, 2009

It's a computer backlog,so it's taking too long to get from site to site.No patience today,just feel really ill.Monday,maybe.
Planned to stay for 2hours today,it's taking too long to load sites on this computer,and it's hot out and I'm just not feeling good at all,maybe Monday.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Liver is starting to swell.Feeling ill more days than not.I'm not afraid to die,I just worry about Gracie and what will happen to her.I've just got to get this sweeling to slow if not stop all together.I'm taking my MILK THISTLE,which seems to help.So,far I'm not in pain.That's a good sign,no water,fluid retention yet either.I guess when they have to start draining your liver that thats when it gets painful.I am going to make it to my 50 th birthday.
Doctor visit yesterday was not good news,not terrible news either,but liver is starting to swell,woke up feeling exteremly ill this morning.Time to go home and rest for the remainder of the day.Things will get better,I truly believe that.

Monday, June 22, 2009

Back to Schedules

I'm back on track,again.It will be hard to get alot of the sites I want at the library,but at least I will be able to keep caught up on email.
Back on a schedule.Library every other day.This will have to work until I get my own computer.

Friday, June 19, 2009

Gracie is starting to act like herself again.Except the tail wagging is still at a minumum.Vet said it could be 2 to 4 weeks before she heals.Hopefully her tail won't have a kink in it.But even if it does,she is still a beautiful girl and my baby.I wish I could get rid of her tail inorder to spare her any future pain,but Gracie without her tail just would'nt be right.
Made the trip to the library for 2 hours on the computer,it still is'nt enough time to do all I need to.But,at least it's a start.I'll get caught up on all my email.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Gracie breaks her tail

I've had quite a few dogs,but none of them have ever,ever had "limber"tail.Gracie was in so much pain,and I,not being a vet,could not figure out what was wrong.It was not only Sunday,it was my birthday and I was sound asleep when she came into the bedroom crying like a banshee.She could not sit or lay down.So,off the the Animal E.R. Gracie got a pain shot and is now recovering ,except it seems to me that she NOW wags her tail even more!160.00 for the vet visit,I would do it again in a heartbeat.More reviews and factoids in my next blog post.Watch that tail!
SLOWLY,the wonders of the tech world are overpowering my world here,in the no tech land.Surely hell can be no worse?!
I'm in the land of no computers at present,managed to escape and get this message out,will be back to the land of tech,Thursday,18th

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Review of PEDI-PAWS

I'm not sure if it's just me or if it's the product that is lacking.It sure does'nt work as easy as you see on T.V.The biggest compaint I have is the smell of the nails as your trimming them,not pleasant.Second compaint is that the little hole that you have to put the nail in,is too small,I spent most of my time trying to find the hole while holding Gracie's paw,she was not amused.The third compaint,is the noise.I do not care how long you take (days/weeks) to get your pat use to this thing,Gracie still flinched from it.Fourth complaint,the file rotates but it will stop with even a slight touch of pressure.Which you need to trim the nail in a rounded design.I just had so much trouble with the product that I gave up.Gracie was'nt the problem,she got irritated because it was taking so long just to get the nail in the slot.I do not reccommend the PEDI-PAWS.It does not preform as advertised.They suggest sitting on your dog if nothing else works,forget that!That's cruel.
Long week w/o computer access.I NEED A LAPTOP!Plse,Creator help me out.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Is it hot EVERYWHERE? Or just in Central California?And to think it's not even summer yet!

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

It's not even summer yet,and it's over 100 degrees outside.I see myself spending all summer inside,again!
Feels like summer is already here.Had errands to run today but refused to leave Gracie at home alone in the heat.Roommate is NOT a dog lover or even a liker.So,Gracie came with me so I could drop her off at dog friends air conditioned home.Gracie is my baby,she is NOT going to suffer in 100 degree weather.

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Monday, May 25, 2009

Well,I'm going home.The house is finally completely ready!My own room and my own bed.What a blessing!Gracie and I will be going back to the dog park probably tomorrow or the next day.

Home is Where the Heart is

April 9th will forever be known as Crap day.Because that is the day that code enforcement came in and shut my house down for code violations,it needed to be done,but it sure was disapointing nit to have a home for almost 2 mos.I can go home now,everything has passed inspection and then some.The best part is the house inside and out looks great!So,now I'm ready for the summer.I have a backyard,a huge backyard that Gracie my dog and baby can play in.The wild cats are gone,never to return!That makes me feel really great!I worried about Gracie getting in a fight with one and getting scratched.Even though she has had her Rabies shot,she could still get sick from germs that those cats tend to carry.Well,it's 6am and I need to get a little more sleep before I return to my house for good.

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HOME

It's time to go home,after 2 mos. of living on someones couch,I get to sleep in my own room in my own bed.The bad part is,I won't have access to a computer everyday.But,that is what I got a library card for.It just makes it harder because Gracie cannot go to the library with me.I will have to go on Mondays,Wednsdays,and Fridays in order to keep up with everything and keep my blog up to date.This will only be until I can purchase my own computer.Which is in the works now.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

GRACIE IN THE YARD AT OUR HOUSE

This is such a great photo of Gracie.She seems to hate to have her pic taken as she always turns her head or looks away just as I get ready to snap the print.But,there are a few times I've out smarted her!

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Saturday, May 23, 2009

Blog post on what you feed your dog.Why processed dog food might be the worst thing to feed your dog.Feeding your dog meat,real meat with veggies and brown rice is one of the recipes that I feed my own dog.all4dogs.over-blog.com
GRACIE IN THE YARD AT OUR HOUSE
GRACIE IN THE YARD AT OUR HOUSE
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Finally,house is ready,but no lights.Which means no air conditioning in this heat.So,it my LAST weekend away from home.Dog Park,here we come!Gracie is'nt as excited as I am.

Friday, May 22, 2009

Gracie has been acting so lazy and being a little testy lately.Went out and got her favorite meal,chicken hearts and gizzards with brown rice and sweet potatoes.I did'nt mind having to cook it.If it makes her mellow out,I'm all for it!

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Extremely ill today.Maybe it's just the heat,but I need to lay down and be still.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Too late to review chew/teeth cleaners today.Gracie has been a very needy dog today,so I'm pooped!More posts tomorrow...

Sunday, May 17, 2009

It is one HOT mother outsude!No work,slept ALL day!WOO-HOO!

Saturday, May 9, 2009

This is my "kid".Yes I know she is a dog,but I have no children and so all my energy and affection goes to Gracie.She does'nt judge me,or steal from me or use drigs and call me names.She does protect me,give me endless companionship and love.And she does ALL of this without asking anything in return,Right now we are both going thru changes because our home is under construction and since there is no electricity,we are having to stay with friends.And sleeping on someones couch can get old really fast.I go to the house every day,I come back across town every night to sleep and then start over again the next day.I just want my home back,my privacy,walks with Gracie to the dog park,my alone time.Saturdays are DVD night for me and Gracie,since we are not home,we cannot do that.Hopefully it won't be much longer and I'll be back to a routine.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

I want to go home!!!!!!

It has been over a week since the cops served the search warrant,and looked in vain for my roommates stash of weapons.The other roommate got mad at him because he caught her stealing from us,again.He gave her an eviction notice so she wanted to get even and called the cops.Telling them he threaen her,blah,blah,blah...Whenmy roommate refused to let the cops in,they went and got a search warrant.The house was loaded with packing boxes,EVERYWHERE.no bugs or vermin,just boxes and boxes of food,canned goods to be exact.So,code enforcement said it was too dangerous for us to stay there until ALL the boxes were out.And that's where I'm at today.All we have left is to take the rest of the stuff to storage.We have been making trips all week,to storage and to the trash containers.I hate it where I'm at right now.I cannot leave ANYTHING unattended,my daughter will steal anything she can get her hands on.She claims to be a Christian,I don't know what planet she's from but last I heard Christians are'nt thieves,liars or fornicators.Yes, ok some of them are.But,those are not True Christians.She'll say she's a Christian and in the same breathe talk behind someones back.I have cut her off as far as calling her my daughter,I gave birth to her,thats it.I am not her mother,nor do I ever want to be.She is dead to me.This may seem extreme,but she has done so many very evil and hurtful things to me,her brother and the woman whi did raise her.It's ok not to like your children.I love her but I do not like her.I am going home this week and once I do,she will forever be out of my life,and I thank God for that.I have been so happy the last 6mos. not seeing her or hearing about her.I do not want the drama,the lies,the stealing or her self-centeredness in my world.She will NEVER be apart of my life.She will not kill me like she did the woman who raised her.I was warned,but,I did not believe it until I experienced it on my own.I did not believe my best friend,now she's gone.I can only say that before she died,we talked and I told her that she was right about the girl and I was wrong.I just wish I had believed her sooner.Evil is emanating from the girl,she is possessed by a demon,I truly believe that.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Catch-Up

This year has been alot better start off than last year.Last year was what I call "the YEAR of DEATH".I lost my favorite Uncle,then my best friend.Not a good year at all.This year I moved to the other side of town.And to be honest,I do not LIKE CHANGE.But,this move was good for me and Gracie.I found a dog park,and we made a few friends.Gracie and I had a great routine going,but we had to move out for 2 weeks because my roommate is a pack rat and he had boxes from floor to ceiling in just about every room,except mine.So,code enforcement shut the house down until he gets rid of the boxes.We are at the half-way point now.Hopefully Gracie and I can go home next week.

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