Real Happiness

My real happiness is my life with my dog.Gracie has been my best friend,confidant,protector and mood enhancer for the last 5+years.There was a life of "before"Gracie that was filled with unhappiness,sadness and such deep and dark depression that my world was literally,BLACK.With Gracie being apart of my life I have found the person I am and have kept my demons in check.For those of us who suffer from Depression,a dog can be the bridge back to a life of color and joy.It is a process,one I am learning every day.Nothing worth having comes easy.You must work for it.

Monday, September 26, 2016

My Gymanist,hurt again

Gracie tore her front leg,all the was to the muscle.Took her to animal emergency,2000 + the 200+ I had already gave the.It was the weekend.I got pain killers and anti botics(67.00).Took her to SPCA for a wound checkrecieved antibotics(more pills.less money)Today is wound check.Hopefully she has of the enough of the wrap and com home.SPCA has reasonable costs.Pray everything goes great for her.




Monday, June 13, 2016

HATE NEVER OVERCOME,ONLY LOVE OVERCOMES

My little brother was strangled in an L.A.MOTEL,no drugs or alchohol in his body,but the worthless cops said it was an OD.I guess he strangle himself.L.A. Is the armpit of the world.Cops refuse to do their jobs.How do you OD with strangle marks on youy neck?HE WAS MURDERED.Rampart,probabbly killed.WE have NO idea where he is,some paupers grave.My mom is TOTALLY DEVESTARTED.MY HEART GOES OUT TO ALL THE VIVITIMS

Sunday, May 1, 2016

Death

Why is it when ever you talk about dying,and coming back,your freinds and family think you have had a complete mental break .you have just had a simple NIGHTMARE.I KNOW WHAT I SAW!And if I cam actually FEEL an autopsy being performed on ME.THEN how can I be crazy?

Wednesday, April 13, 2016

A Rip in Time


I was asked to write down my latest break,or what they call my episode.I do not remember what the exact day was,that is still confusing.I would close my eyes and .every time I opened them I was in a different place.I died,no one could see or hear me.I felt this strange feeling in my chest,like someone was in my chest,doing an autopsy on me.I could feel it,but not see it.Then closing my eyes again I would wake up in different place.It was very confusing I woke up one time,as an observer,in a white room.This was a white room,a man I had never seen before he said that Creator could do ANYTHING.Make you disappear from your family..They look for any way to confuse you.Three doors in this room.In one I observed.I was watching things go on around me,terrified I would be stuck in Limbo,not hell but not heaven either.I question all I believed in.TO BE CONT.