FINDING HAPPINESS AGAIN

When my husband died I did'nt think that my life could be worth living again.I had finally found the person I was meant to be with,and after only 5 yrs. together,he dies of multipule organ failure.We both lnew that the end was'nt too far away,but when it does happen you are NEVER prepared for it.I'd lost people close to me before,but nothing prepared me for his death.Even now,today,talking and writing about it hurts just as much as it did the day of his death.I spent almost all this time in deep depression,his death was the first in a long line of calamaties in my life.I was hit by a car,I came home to find my roommate dead,and my dog died.Everytime I 'd pick myself up,and start to feel some what normal,whatever that means,and BOOM!! It would be another death or accident.In the final month of 2006,I'd had about all I could take.The constant and unpredictable bouts of tears,on the bus,in a store ect.I went to the animal shelter,I'd always had dogs as a kid,and I'd read that dogs were said to help people with lonliness and depression.I found 5lb. Gracie-girl at the moment I brought her home,my whole life changed.I started to actually smile,and the tears were'nt coming as much.Gracie is 30lbs. now,and she makes everyday an adventure.I've had her fixxed and she has the micro-chip in her just in case she gets lost.But,I don't see that happening,I keep her in my sights all the time.She is a house dog,and yes,she sleeps at the foot of my bed.Gracie has done more for me than the medications and all the doctors.I've got happiness back in my life.