Faith

I do not consider myself a Christian in the way that others view what a Christian is.I am always at a loss for words when I am asked,"Are you a Christian?"What am I suppose to say?No,I do not believe in Organized Religion.I have been to just about every religious organization known to man.And I have never found any of them that told me the truth.I have seen people who claim to be walking with Christ,committing every sin imaginable.And if you point this out,you are vilified.So,I gave up on listen to others tell me what my relationship with MY Creator should be.I think the most important thing to have,besides a personal relationship with your Creator,is Faith.I know from experience Faith is not a given.You can say you have Faith,but,do you really?Do you worry about how you are going to pay your bills?The Mortgage?Food?Clothes?Do you fear things?I guess most people would say it is human nature to 'worry".But,that is not true.Worry causes stress,which causes illness not just physically but mentally too.I use to think that if I prayed for something,I would and should recieve it.Does Creator not say,"ask and you shall receive"What I finally learned was that sometimes,what you ask for is not what you need.Only Creator can see the big picture,we,as mere mortals,cannot see the big picture.I was great at worrying about things that were out of my control.I found that I was worried about things that were beyond my control.I let go.I admit that I do worry,sometimes,just a tiny bit.I am human after all.But,I do not worry about money,material things or what might happen a week from now.I let go.I have Faith,everything is going to work out.I am not going to be without.This life is just one big lesson.And my spiritual growth is important to me,I am still searching,still learning.But,I have Faith.And thats what gets me through my days.